RATATA BOOM BOOM WOOH LALALA CHA CHA CHA.

I HAVE TO SHOUT IT OUT! BECAUSE I CAN'T CONTAIN IT. :D

Being in a rather strict family, I wasn't expecting much from them, including my Sissy sister. Since she is those VERY innocent, "Only listen to mama&papa words" type of girl, hence I did not expect any acceptance from her. Instead, more like cold war, telling my parents, causing me to face the loudest music of my life. HOWEVER, (the best part)

TODAY, I REALIZED SHE HAD ALREADY ACCEPTED IT. SHE ACCEPTED ME FOR BEING ME. SHE KNEW ALL ALONG, I WAS ALREADY DIFFERENT (GAY), even though she didn't really like it, but she did not go cold war with me, she did not bust me. She still talk to me, care for me like she always do, her attitude towards me did not change, not a bit! SHE KNEW, I HAD A GIRLFRIEND, SHE KNEW WHO SHE WAS, SHE KNEW EVERYTHING, (except for the things me and her did) BUT SHE KNEW!

HOW DID I FIND OUT?
Today, we decided to run together from our house to Clarke Quay and then to the CBD and then back home. Because yesterday, I sent out a message to her, and I was kinda wishing that there will be a reply, but there isn't any.. and it has been a very very long since I feel that way I had describe in the message, my behavior had become like

When i have nothing to distract myself and start thinking bout you

I can't focus studying cause I keep thinking of you. 

Mad at why the hell I am missing and thinking of you

Cause i miss you so much and you are not giving a damn of my existence 

WHY MUST THINGS TURN OUT THIS WAY?!!!!! 

Just breathe, everything will be alright, just wait just wait! 

ARGGHHH, WHERE ARE YOU? HOW ARE YOU? WHY AM I STILL THINKING OF YOU??!!ARRGGHHHHHH!!! 

OMGAWT! HOW???!!!!! WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO! STRESSSSS~!

Parents nagging when I am already in a very foul mood. 

Angry cause whenever I'm studying, you "jump" into my head and contaminate it! 

and I could no longer contain it, and decided to share to my sissy. When I had said about what my problem was, she immediately said "Is it because of that girl?" I WAS SO SHOCKED!! I treat it as a good thing, because now I have someone to confront to, a family member :) and I can talk to her bout you, when I need to. She may not listen, but at least she will be there for me. And after saying what I felt, sis went quiet. I thought she will be mad at me, but but but, when we reached home, she pat on head! THIS IS A HUGE THING! SHE NEVER PAT ME BEFORE! Only a few times when she is really happy happy :D An action prove more than zillions words right :)
Now my feelings are rather mixed, but knowing that sissy is open bout it I'm

I have to maintain.